Full of whatever we’re dealing with at this moment. Whatever we are blessed to be struggling with, to be crying about, to be jumping for joy about. It’s what makes up this fragile, brief, full life. To discard, discount, disown, disguise, disapprove of any of it is not an option. There is only the diving into it, the sitting with it, the wearing it, the inhaling it, the being with it, the embracing it. There is only the taking it into our open arms and letting it fill us up.
Embrace the fullness of life.
Build a bridge from empty to full because you will need to cross it many times in this life.
This does not mean ignoring the emptiness, running away from it, filling it up with superficial happy thoughts, or numbing yourself to it. It means sitting with the discomfort, pain, fear, truth, emptiness, and seeing it. Seeing how you react and interact with it. Submitting to whatever particularly raw reality you are in and inhabiting your own experiences.
Surrender to the emptiness. Enter the solitude and look around the darkness until your eyes adjust.
“The dark holds unbounded potential. If you think about it, creation and the deepest transformations happen in the dark. Ideas form in the darkness within. We heal and restore while we sleep. Babies are conceived and grow within the nurturing darkness of the womb for nine months…” – Katrina Ariel
Open Your Eyes.
See what’s in front of you. Look around you and find the beauty in every living thing, in every human interaction, in yourself. Most likely you have two legs, you have two eyes, you have a place to sleep, and you have a mouth to speak with. Re-examine and reignite the simple magic of being alive.
Move slowly. Deliberately. Consciously. Slow enough so that you can see the detail in the smallest movement or object. A leaf, a grain of sand, a heartbeat, a crack in the sidewalk. Taste the flavors in your food. Find the richness in your life that has nothing to do with how much you do or have.
Dig deep inside you and fan the flame of your being, of your life. It’s in every one of us, even when it seems to be just dying embers. Choose where you want to go and commit. Wobble, fall, run, crawl, rest, but keep recentering to maintain your focus.
To the parts of you still beating, breathing, living, dreaming, growing. No one, no thing, no situation can make you happy or fill you up except you. You must find your roots, follow them through the dark, nourishing soil and up into the sunshine, growing beyond your wildest dreams.